“Sing Song Sang”

Life’s good. A bit of hiccup here and there but, nothing I can’t handle.

Have you describe/imagine some moment in your life with a song. I have and always do. It’s kind of silly or childish (if you want to call it that way) but it works for me. For example, when I’m in smily mood, a fast and happy melodiy song will be my choice. For now, definitely “Into the night” by Carlos Santana feat. Chad Kroeger. When I’m in the rebel mood, my choice of song is from the “The Black Donnelly’s” opening theme. Sad? Still, “Cinta Putih” by Kerispatih + “Broken” by Lifehouse br the choice.

Kinda freak? Naaa… I think it is normal. Most of the peoples done this without they realized it. It not only bout the lyrics, but the melody too.

Well, last two days, my mood was good like Santana sound of guitar’s melody coz every problem regarding works, I can handle it pretty damm good. So while I’m having my nicotine break, my Mentor come and approaches me. We have a little chat about work, and our future life plan. It happened that my Mentor planning to resign from his current post and move on. I’m a bit disturbed by his statement. He’s not sure when, but soon. Why? He’s planning to raise his kid in a better environment of education and he chose not to do that in this country. He’s planning to migrate to one of the Europe country and settle down there. Respect him for his decision. Man of the family need to think the best for his family.

Believe it or not, everyday you learn something new. Normally, I will do what I can to get what I want or plan (in a positive way of course). In this case, usually I will pursue him/other people to reconsider his plan. Maybe not really give an impact but at least I try. But I’m not. Learn to let go, and accept it what it is. Try to respect other people decision. Hard but trying to adapt it.

“What about you? What is your future plan?”

Magic question pop up from his mouth. If this question asked to me a few months before, I’m sure what to answer. All in the calculation. The math is done. But after a few incidents, I’m not really sure now. What cross my mind that time was like Nickelback song’s “Rockstar”. Damm, I wish can be like that. Yeah wish… The question haunted me all day. Currently I drive my life more like “The Way I Live” by Baby Boy + “Fake it” from Seether. Not really similar but something like that. Just enjoy the life the way I suppose to. But until now I still can’t made up my mind on the new plan. However, 1 thing for sure, is to gain wealth. Just like Akon stated in “Sweetest Girl”, “Cash rules everything around me”. True is it?

Did I mention before bout my childhood friend suffered from cancer at the age of 25 years old. Well, he is on his final treatment now. A damm heavy Chemotherapy. . Got his text yesterday.

“Gile bro, mmg kimo ni paling power dlm dunia.Muke gua rase bengkak.Gusi berdenyut mcm nak pecah.Mata gua merah cam darah.Perghh, panas nak mampos. Doakan gua slamat bro”

Without I realized it, there is some sort of liquid coming out of my eyes. A bit sad after reading his text. I’m not sure how many times he done his chemo and he suffer, impact of the treatment. .According to him, this is the last treatment. He looks healthy but, it was his faith. At that moment, “Ungu-SyurgaMu” was the melody that crosses my mind. Brother, my prayer, always with you. Sedih sial gua…

Actually, now it is 7.00 a.m. and in the middle of compiling document for my client. Awal gile beb! Heh, not sleep yet and today is Sunday. Can’t sleep actually coz I already overdose sleeping during the day. Saturday is time to take a good rest right?.
I’m running out of cigarettes. Need to buy a pack and have my breakfast. Mane aku nak breakfast nih…. “Jalan-jalan cari makan”.

"Sis"

it's 2a.m in the morning.where am i? ln a cold room.damm cold.i still can hear the sound of the air rushing in, in every angle of the room.infront of me, there is a black stainless steel line made of lockers. All those metal lockers were full with machines that have a lot of blinking lights.always blinking. 24 hours a day.7 days a week. same goes behind me. i'm surrounded by them. probally all my housemate having fun, sleeping , enjoying the comfort of thier bed at our new house while i'm stuck here.that's right. i'm in the server room waiting for greenlight from the other team saying that everything is ok.why am i here? working. there is a migration activity that can't be done during day light and i'm the engineer incharge. right now, i'm tired.so, while waiting for the signal, unlocked my pda and start writing.

Stainless steel line

this week my sleep is not really a good one. been disturb a bit.last 2 nights, my parent woke me up at 3a.m, asked me to check on the date they picked for my sister wedding in islamic month. yeah man.my sis getting married and it was the 1st marriage in our family.l think that's why my parent get so nervous. well, 1 by 1 people that i know getting married. it,s like they take turn and the duration gap is small.maybe because at my age now, it's time for people 2 have a family.

Got text msg come in.

"there is some bugs and we trying to fix it.may take sometime.sorry for delay"

Aiyaa....got bugs some more. seem like it going to be a looooong night.

where was i? aa, marriage. my sister future husband work same workplace as she used to.the company has a policy saying that no 'intimate relationship' among staff(something like that). unfortunately, my sister housemate + bestfriend since highschool+ officemate was one of the HR management team. So,for almost 3 years my sister kept a secret about her love relationship even from her housemate until my sis jump 2 another company.

Well,for my sis, i respect the 'don't wanna friend carried the burden' attidude and as for her housemate, i give a credit for a commitment to work(as far as i know,she quite a strict person) but where the love goes? Maybe not all women but, that what i dont understand women.For guys, this thing is only a small matter. 'Bole cerita punya'. Gentleman talk and issue solve!

Another text message coming in.

'The apps working fine and already tested by the testing team.It ready for final stage' .

Pause! got to work. to be continue....


After been in the data centre for 10 hours (6pm - 4am), having nasi kandar as my late supper @ Pelita restaurant ampang, now, i'm lying on my cozy bed. Already request for morning leave. Not because of the late duty but has to manage some issue that belong to my sis. Her car got hit by a lorry. So tomorrow have to bring her to the workshop + meet the lorry's driver. Hopefully everything goes fine coz accident is really a headache. Well it's time to sleep. Adios!

"Life"

I think it was almost 1 month since my last post. Being tied up lately. Tied with raya, book launch and work + bizz. Today is Friday.Now, 11.52 p.m and I still at work’s place. Has to prepare for installation tomorrow at client’s place. Damm! Has to work this Saturday.

Actually, a lot happening in this past few weeks. During raya, as usual, there is “open house” session. Meet some lost friends such as Libyaan girls soon to be, a spa owner soon to be, mum and dad of Affifudin and lots more.. Shared some stories. Meet some new friends. Yeah man, that raya was a short break for me. Than, start working. The fussy life start again.

The book, “Lakaran Warisan”, now its officially launched. With lots thing coming, we finally managed to launch it. At last. Now, it times to sell it, make some money. Hopefully. Actually, it’s a must. Because of this book, lots thing happened. People fight over this. Bond has been broken. Friend becomes enemy. Peace becomes war. So, at least I must make sure all the sacrifice been paid.

Oh ya. Just move to the new house at Ukay perdana. Ok la.. Still not move everything form my old house at puchong but slowly. Sejuk nak mampos! Atas bukit.. memang best.

Lately, I’ve lost interest on lots of things. I not sure why. Maybe tired of trying hard but the result is still the same. Now, felt very tired. Everyone wants everything. The one that always been pointed is me. Fucking tired. Maybe this is what they called frustration.

Well, anyway, my company (where I’m working now) financial slowly stable. So far, salary is not an issue. I’m glad. One problem blah, one problem comes. Anyway, that’s life. vCoke’s life….