"Newbie"

Another 1 month and a half I will be unemployed for 3 weeks and start my new career at 1 of the financial institution in Malaysia. Only one word to describe the first day, Newbie! I hate being newbie. You have to start all over again and you are alone. As i recalled, I tried to avoid this newbie environment at the past.

Maybe to some, its a common thing and nothing to shout about but to me, damm, its a thing! No friends, don't know what to do..

When you think about it, It same with 1st day of marriage at your in-law house. Huh! terrifying. As a newbie, you will faking yourself and it is damm torturing. Smile to everyone, be polite even though you feel like smack his/her face, Laughing to his/her stupid joke even though its not funny, accept everything with open heart. This sort of feeling make me feel far away from marriage, hehe...

Sighh..Last time, the first week as a newbie was like hell!(my current job). 1st week, I don't have a table, no laptop, and no specific assignment/task been assign to me. Almost few hour, someone will say to me "This is my seat, please seat over there..." To make thing worst, I've been sent to JB for a week, with no laptop and all new faces, 24 by 7..

Pool car from KL with stranger to Jb with stranger, and stay in a apartment with new meet colleagues. I supposed to have a ToT(Transfer of Tech.) from one of the staff that are leaving(also newly met and stay with me at the apartment). But this guy is Lansi! Even though he is younger than me, act like a damm big shot. Spoke without facing you with the arrogant tone of voice. As being me, I want to take my right hand and put it on his face with speed of 280km/h but realizing that I'm a newbie and his knowledge is my objective, i just put my right hand in my pocket.

Well, "a man got to do, what he got to do" so face it! By hook or by crook. Whatever it is, I have few more weeks, so, as Donnie Brasco said "Forget about it"..

vCoke - Subang Jaya Dec 20th 2009.